It is what it is

I went to the clinic to have someone official read me the results of my biopsy.

I have an invasive ductal carcinoma tumor in my left breast.  This is the most common type of breast cancer.  Invasive ductal carcinoma starts in a milk passage (duct) of the breast, breaks through the wall of the duct, and grows into the fatty tissue of the breast.  At this point, it may be able to spread to other parts of the body through the lymphatic system and bloodstream.  During surgery, the doctors will do a sentinel node biopsy to determine if the cancer has spread.

Well that just sucks.

The next step, make an appointment with a General Practitioner to get referral to see a specialist.  The first available appointment wasn’t available until May 29^th.   That is a long time to wait with no answers to what will happen next.

Yep, that sucks.

Now comes the hardest part.  Telling people that you have cancer.  You know how you feel when someone tells you bad news.  Well, having to tell someone bad news about yourself is a billion times worse.  The silence on the phone or the look in their eyes of almost immediate sadness, it creates this awful feeling in your gut.  And there is never a good time or good way to dispel the news, never.

Sucks even more.

I wanted very much not to tell people and just deal with it on my own, but all the doctors and nurses and pamphlets tell you to create a support group around you to get through everything.

I would start with telling my immediate family, this was done over the phone since they don't live in the same city as me.

Sucked.

That was about all I can handle for now.  Since I don't have any real answers to what is going to happen, I am going to keep this to myself for a bit.