One extreme to another

I couldn't wait to start being active again.  All I wanted was to get back to my normal active life.  Patience, patience, patience...

"Have you been throwing?"  "No."  "Why not?"  "I am afraid I am going to break it."  "You need to start throwing, you are not going to hurt anything.  Just take it slow." Sigh.  "It'll be okay, it is just going to take some time.  You need to be throwing."

Now that I have started using my arm, albeit very slow and minimal, I am very hesitant.  The past couple of weeks I have tried the overhead throw with a soccer ball a few times.  I just cannot get used to how the implant feels.  Again, it is hard to describe.  It feels loose.  It feels like it is moving.  It feels like it is falling.  After each throw I feel like I need to readjust my implant.  Argh!  So weird.  I guess I am so used to my upper body muscles being tight and firm from all the swimming and surfing I did.  This is very much the opposite.

My physical therapy homework for the week:  light throwing/tossing with a softball.

A little weekend fun

Finally, a nice weekend getaway without any "medical" issues - chemo side effects, drains hanging from my chest.  It was nice to enjoy a "normal" vacation.  My energy was good, I got to enjoy yummy food, and the great company of family and friends.

My chemo buddies also enjoyed their time away from the Cedars Campus too.

Lil Rey catching rays

Shadow up to no good

Lil Rey takes revenge

Saving Shadow

Everyone was in good spirits.

Giant Welts

This round of injections made quite an impression on the top of my thigh.  The biggest induration thus far.  At 6am this morning the injection sites were at 9cm in diameter and oblong shaped on the top and 9cm circles on the side of my thigh.  They are a lovely shade of red and sore as heck.  It hurts to walk.

6am pic of the two sites on top of my thigh

By the time I get ready for bed, the two sites on top of my thigh have now reached 11cm, just outside of the "okay" zone.  The two on the side are still at 9cm.

10pm pic of the top of my thigh

The up side to all of this is that this was my last "monthly" round of injections and I don't get another round until November.  Next month they will only do the hyper-sensitivity test on my other leg.  This only involves a couple of low dose injections. Yay, as always hanging tight to those little positives.

A little closer to the end

The beginning of a long day on the Cedars campus starts at 8:30am with check in at the south tower cardiology wing for an echocardiogram at 9am.  Not the most comfortable procedure.  The technician always has problems getting a good reading because of the implant.  She ends up pushing hard into my rib cage to get the right angle.  Blah.  Not fun.  Twenty-five minutes of uncomfortable pressure in an already sensitive area before she is finally done.

Now a little walk back over to the Samuel Oschin Cancer Center.  As always after checking in, first stop the vampire's lair.  Today, Vampire Paul only has to take six tubes.  Yay!!

Then, in to see the doctor and research team.  We go through the usual check list.  No new symptoms, all the old ones still hanging around.  All my blood work came back beautifully, the counts are all normal and the markers clean.  Time to take my Ativan and today we go ahead and put the Lidocaine rub on now instead of when I get to the treatment area.  The last visit the pharmacist prepared the shots quickly and there had not been enough time for the rub to really work its magic.  The leg is prepared and I go over to registration to check-in for treatment.

Today we go up to the research center for treatment.  I always have this strange feeling when I have to go there.  One has to be escorted there by someone with a special badge to get in the elevator and doors.  You walk through a maze of long, cold, white corridors with hardly any doors.  It feels like you are on your way to a mad scientist's lair.

I get settled in and wait.  After about forty-five minutes the shots arrive.  The nurse is with another patient, so the games begin:

Nurse Shadow at it again.

Southpaw joins in the fun.  Poor Lil Rey.

Now it is my turn.  Boo.  The Lidocaine rub has worked its magic for the most part.  The pain levels are definitely down, but not gone completely.  The first one went in nicely, hardly any pain, perhaps a two on the scale.  The second one gets bumped up to a four on the scale though.  Three and four were a bit higher even, let's say five-six range.  I even flinched a bit on three which is probably not the best thing since it is a needle being stuck in to my body. Within minutes of each going in, the soreness in the injection sites began.  Now we chill out for an hour of observation.

The gang checking out the cobra's handy work.

After my hour, all is good, and I am discharged.  I have a little time before physical therapy, so treat time.

A little vegetable juice, green tea, cheese danish and coconut twist.

Final stop of the day, physical therapy.  We are working on my left arm range of motion still.  She does a little lymphatic massage on my arm to get some chording worked out first.  Then, we learn some new exercises, some of which involve a ball.  Yay!!  It is a light plastic ball about the size of a basketball, but I am still excited.  I get to throw something!!  She shows me three exercises I get to do for now.  One where I roll the ball up a wall, and two others where I throw the ball in an overhead bounce pass motion - one straight on and the other at an angle.  Baby steps, but so happy.

It is now 3:45pm, the end of my day at the Cedars campus.  I am ready to veg-out on the couch.

Post-op Follow-up

Follow up day with the plastic surgeon and his team.  It is a very quick visit.  He checks my surgical area over and likes what he sees.  Everything is healing nicely and would like to see me again in August.  If all goes well the next few months we can discuss the nipple reconstruction then.  I asked him about the little "poofyness" I am still feeling just below my armpit area.  He says it is normal, my body is just taking time to heal.  It should continue to decrease in size.  We will discuss it again when I come back.  If it is still prominent he can do a little work on it when we finish the reconstruction.

We also discussed the weirdness of the pectoral muscle I have been feeling.  It is very hard to describe it to them, but they have heard it before so they understood where I was coming from.  Again, what I was feeling is completely normal.  Hopefully over time, I will get used to how it feels and not notice it as much.  I do get to add light jogging to my exercise regime now.  But, as always, if there is any pain I need to stop.